::The Harbinger:: - Fly me away...

So my life is tied in to school and work again (as per usual). I have school in the mornings mon-thurs, which isn't so bad because my teacher is actually pretty cool. Then I work friday and saturday mornings, as well as on sunday evenings, which is always same old. But that covers seven days a week (at least for another four weeks). There's not one day I'll have to just go and do whatever I want. Granted, I will have afternoons and evenings, but that's not enough. At this point, I'm doing the same old random shit, and not really building on anything in my life like I used to. I think I need that back. I think I need a new person (or some new people) in my life, although I would never abandon my actual friends now. But then again, I'm too damn selective. All the people that have filtered through my life recently have gone because I had seen enough and wasn't impressed, not the other way around (not that I'm a dynamic person by any means).

What I'm really looking for is someone, according to Myers-Briggs, is a big Senser. I want to know what is right in front of my face that I can't see, and someone else needs to point it out to me. I'm such an intuiter that I'm never really focused on the details of the here and now. I rarely notice things as simple as someone's eye color. It's not by choice, and it's not because I'm uninterested, it's just that I'm too off in my own world that I only really pick up on the gist of things. I also think I need someone who is more extraverted. I'm not shy about my introversion. In fact, I may overuse it as an excuse for my behavior at times. But I wish someone would bring the life out of me more. Most of my friends now actually are extraverts, and it can be a lot of fun hanging around them, and it's great, but one-on-one extraversion with someone I really care for is still missing. I absolutely need someone who is more of a rationalizer than a feeler though. It's hard for me to understand (and I look down on it quite a bit) people who rely on their feelings to make decisions instead of actually thinking about it. I think it leads to the same problems over and over again. Saying 'it just feels right' sometimes sounds like an excuse for ignorance. As for lifestyle, although I prefer structure and well thought out plans in my own life, I think the opposite could be nice. To be more spontaneous and not limit oneself by very much. Unfortunately, too much of that would definitely cause discord.

Those are my ramblings about potientiality that I probably shouldn't be concerning myself with, but it has been on my mind for some time. But back to what is for sure...I get to see Kathy Griffin tonight! I think I may actually die. It sucks because I found out for $200 each, we could have gotten tickets for seats within the first five rows, and gone backstage afterwards to meet Kathy and get an autographed copy of her dvd. Damnit! But oh well, at least I'll see her performing live. Every act of hers is completely different since she never prepares anything and just has diarrhea of the mouth. I love it! And the new season of her show starts next Tuesday. I will be all over that. It's kind of sad though that this is what I'm living for right now, but fuck it. Kathy is amazing, and that's that. Peace out.

- Kathy's third cousin, twice removed, James Griffin.